We finally received our foster parent certification in the mail last Saturday! According to my overly-nerdy computer ticker, it only took 6 months and 3 weeks from our first class to certification. Not so bad, really! Now we are just awaiting our first phone call. The thing is, we are not necessarily as hot to get a call as we first were because I am now 14 weeks pregnant. I decided that waiting a whole nother year was just out of the question, and thankfully, Styles was willing to agree, so Im getting my spring baby! Expected due date: April 27, 2008. So far, we are calling him Baby Gilly, and we are not finding out the sex until he is born. And Im not calling him “it,” he is “he.” Our foster care agency decided they do not want us to have 2 kids in diapers, so instead of getting a child aged birth – 3, we are signed up for ages 2 -4. We also reduced our number from 2 to 1. I said I could handle instant 2 kids, but not instant 3 and our caseworker agreed. I dont really understand about the diapers part. The couple that spoke at our panel class had 3 foster kids, one 1-yr-old, & 2 infants, which makes for THREE in diapers, so I dont see why they are being like that with us. Im just irritated b/c I really wanted a foster baby and not a foster toddler, but Ill be getting the baby either way, so at this point, I guess I dont really care.
Ive been spending my time since my last post mourning the passing of my father, having an okay summer, and suffering through a nasty first trimester. Im really very sad that my dad is not going to be around to meet and get to know this baby. This would be his first grandchild (Im an only child). I feel really bad for my mom most of the time b/c I know that she did not ever anticipate going through this alone. I know she can talk to her friends about Gilly and all of that, but there is nothing like having your spouse to chat with, especially since they are going through the same thing as you. It’s also hard b/c she is so young to have that house all to herself now, and face the possiblity of being alone for the rest of her life. She has been cleaning out my fathers things and saying what a packrat he was, and she never knew it. He apparently collected a lot of junk. Sometimes I wonder if she will end up dating and stuff. That would be really super weird, but I already told her it wouldnt bother me. Just weird to think of your parent dating. Would she even remember how to do it? It’s amazing how much life can change in just two years. Two years ago, my dad was alive and healthy. Two years ago, Styles and I were barely married. Now my father is dead and Im pregnant. Hmm.
My parents died within 5 months of each other and then I was pregnant 6 months later, so I (kind of) know what you are going through. If you want to talk and rant to a complete stranger, email me.
Wow, that is horrible! I have a feeling my mom will be around for a long time, so Im not worried about her dying. Sucks, though, doesnt it?